I am SO sick and tired..
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I am SO sick and tired..
Of being used as a Stud Horse for multiple lonely single mothers.
Once or twice a month simply so they can get some "mommy time"
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There is SO much more to it-
Ask..
Once or twice a month simply so they can get some "mommy time"
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There is SO much more to it-
Ask..
Kanigo2- Posts : 148
Join date : 2015-05-10
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
Shit, life is hard, eh, Kan?
Second hand rejects and used channels. I feel you.
Second hand rejects and used channels. I feel you.
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
Stupping the little old ladies again?
Hmm?
Hmm?
Frigg Stuyvesant- Posts : 157
Join date : 2015-03-15
Location : Im right cheer
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
Life isn't hard ,YM-but I have feelings too-not to be just discarded after rode hard and put away wet.
I'd like to just dial up at a whim and show up.....but can't do that when little Johnny or Sally require constant care ...
Had one recently-she actually kicked her three kids out of the house for the night.... The youngest was 15 and didn't have anywhere to go...I talked her into letting him inside to sleep in his own bed....
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And no-these aren't alhiemerz patients-stump having midgets-or cat ladies frigg ... Just lonely moms-that usually work too hard...
Healthcare/education/managers/office workers/nail salon techs.
It's always the same story-cock carousel, until they can land a sucker.
I get it-I serve a purpose...but.....
I'd like to just dial up at a whim and show up.....but can't do that when little Johnny or Sally require constant care ...
Had one recently-she actually kicked her three kids out of the house for the night.... The youngest was 15 and didn't have anywhere to go...I talked her into letting him inside to sleep in his own bed....
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And no-these aren't alhiemerz patients-stump having midgets-or cat ladies frigg ... Just lonely moms-that usually work too hard...
Healthcare/education/managers/office workers/nail salon techs.
It's always the same story-cock carousel, until they can land a sucker.
I get it-I serve a purpose...but.....
Kanigo2- Posts : 148
Join date : 2015-05-10
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
I feel you, Kan.
Whilst 54% of women in their 40s and 50s are married, there is a significant percentage that have become the sole care givers. The architects of this society have left them without an additional role in life and many of them have become desperate to secure a mate just so they can fit in The honey trap is an oft used ploy.
Then again, there are those who merely crave human affection and contact, long denied them and have become easy prey to lounge room lotharios.
What are you, Kan, and what do you really want? I suspect you crave love and affection too, but won't allow yourself to receive that due to guilt. You should free yourself, Kan; She would want that!
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
You're not just a pretty face, K..
Macdougal- Posts : 122
Join date : 2015-03-07
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
It's worse then that M-D.
I've just come off a 7 year fight to get out of debt-secure my children's future-and im frigging TIRED.
I mean I get it- I'm at my NADIR - I see actual, true, things in my life that are proof that things have changed.(call me low on faith-that I needed proof)
But I also wasted seven years of my life doing it.
I cried the other day-and even told a very few close friends of your words concerning"how I will finally be in another place/another life-and look back ...I'll realized it's changed-and that I don't have to live there anymore"
Point being(YM)- it doesn't just change overnight-and forgiveness and guilt don't pass just because I have a whim-or advice to do so.
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I know this isn't a personal blog-but I've written about this shit for years-and many that have followed can get a grip on what actual trauma looks like.....and the experience....maybe you all could avoid a few pitfalls...because it's going to happen to everyone.
I've just come off a 7 year fight to get out of debt-secure my children's future-and im frigging TIRED.
I mean I get it- I'm at my NADIR - I see actual, true, things in my life that are proof that things have changed.(call me low on faith-that I needed proof)
But I also wasted seven years of my life doing it.
I cried the other day-and even told a very few close friends of your words concerning"how I will finally be in another place/another life-and look back ...I'll realized it's changed-and that I don't have to live there anymore"
Point being(YM)- it doesn't just change overnight-and forgiveness and guilt don't pass just because I have a whim-or advice to do so.
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I know this isn't a personal blog-but I've written about this shit for years-and many that have followed can get a grip on what actual trauma looks like.....and the experience....maybe you all could avoid a few pitfalls...because it's going to happen to everyone.
Kanigo2- Posts : 148
Join date : 2015-05-10
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
But to answer your questions YM, I honestly don't know what I am-or what I want.
This is because I married my high school sweetheart -and SHE told me what I wanted...lol.
I'm just being the same thing I always was with/without her-a whore/manwhore....
(And yes I see the parallels with the women that contact me-so no bait-don't need)
This is because I married my high school sweetheart -and SHE told me what I wanted...lol.
I'm just being the same thing I always was with/without her-a whore/manwhore....
(And yes I see the parallels with the women that contact me-so no bait-don't need)
Kanigo2- Posts : 148
Join date : 2015-05-10
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
The seven years weren't wasted, K.
Macdougal- Posts : 122
Join date : 2015-03-07
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
yeah, they were...
although trying to convince anyone else means I have to tell them fuck you and your opinion.
then the cycle starts all over again.
I just want off the mind rape train...
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cant even have a conversation with anyone anymore...
although trying to convince anyone else means I have to tell them fuck you and your opinion.
then the cycle starts all over again.
I just want off the mind rape train...
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cant even have a conversation with anyone anymore...
Kanigo2- Posts : 148
Join date : 2015-05-10
Re: I am SO sick and tired..
Kanigo2 wrote:yeah, they were...
although trying to convince anyone else means I have to tell them fuck you and your opinion.
then the cycle starts all over again.
I just want off the mind rape train...
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cant even have a conversation with anyone anymore...
Yes, you can
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